My strep throat seems to be making a resurgance despite the antibiotics, I'm worried that once they're gone in three days it will come back with a vengance, requiring another doctor trip and another round of antibiotics, stronger ones, which will likely make me sick. On top of the strep, I got a super bad cold, or perhaps a flu. The kind where you just cry because your sinus and your eyes and your everything is running. So I sat in the car place waiting for my oil change and car check up crying. I'm sure I looked absolutely stunning. I called in sick again that night.
My roof is leaking. Nothing like coming home from work to discover your bed is wet because you didn't move the furniture because the roof wasn't leaking when you left. Fortunately the roofer called proactively, he's determined to fix it for me, but still... wet bed, not fun. So, I decided to try and share my somewhat broken futon with the Sophie cat. Her "day bed" is on one end, in the sunshine, so I put my head at the other end... and wound up getting my foot bit when I invaded her space...
Work has been challenging. I saved another guy last night...maybe. Same coworker as before and I busted into this guys cell in the drunk tank after he made his shirt into a rope, knotted it, and tightened it till he passed out. After he got some more air he became super violent, like beyond violent and I had to BEG my coworker to close the door, I don't know what he was trying to do. Anyway, it took six police officers to wrestle him into cuffs and shackles, there were only four, and they were losing till two more showed up on the scene. After he got checked at the hospital they brought him back, more sober, he said he just wanted out and he was "pretty hammered". Just watch him not remember this by morning.
I need a new job. It's scary though. My job right now is a permanent position. Most openings, the few there are, are for term positions. I know that's how you start, but the idea of so little permancy scares me. And, I only just got benifits March 1st. Not as big a deal in Canada, but still...I like clean teeth. The things is though, I don't want to work in the drunk tank anymore. I'm tired of locking people up. Really sick of it. I'm tired of being threatened constantly and the constant berating and abuse. I like my shelter clients, I like them a lot. If I could just work with them, I'd be happier, but you rotate areas at work, and so I can't just work shelter and detox. I also really want a social work position. I want to use more of my skills on a regular basis. Right now a lot of my conversations go like this "I can't let you out, go to sleep". That, and, "I need your cell, you have to get out now, it's busy tonight... GET UP".
I'm having nightmares, especially the past couple days. Just really bad ones. I have a recurring one about the drunk tank, but I've had that for ages. Now I'm just having so many. Yesterday's was so bad I wound up just getting up, and then I went to work tired.
I suppose I'm a bit lonely too. But that's mostly my own doing, and definitely at least partly to do with working nights. Best friend is have a country a way, bestest bud is in third year university and it's march, and she has a boyfriend. There are people around, I just never seem to make the effort. I'll have to start. Mostly, my life seems to consist of feeling tired, dragging myself up or staying up at weird times to go to church or church meetings and working... oh, and my daily cup of coffee... i love it. That's how I knew I was really sick, when I didn't go out and get my coffee. I think working a day job would be good for me. Maybe I just need to see more sunshine! I need to go to yoga too, the exercise and breathing and sweating and high heartrate really, really help. I've been too sick though, last time I had strep I went back to yoga a bit too soon and thought I was going to pass out right in the middle of class.
So onward I go. There's one job I might just apply for I found in the classifieds today, and I do have an interview on Tuesday. I'd really love to find a job before the enforcer comes back from holidays at the end of the month. I had a horrible nightmare about him a few nights ago.
posts about my clients will follow... as soon as I can work up the energy...