Monday, December 20, 2010


I have this neck issue going on, which may very well be a physical manifestation of my inner pain. In any case, my massage therapist asked me if I was "stressed" today. And for some reason, that question made me SO angry. AM I STRESSED? You think? It's only like 7 weeks since my mother died, and it's almost Christmas. And he knows that stuff, he was at my mom's funeral for goodness sakes. I'm not sure why I'm so angry about it, but I am SO angry.

the end.


cb said...

I know that feeling. I think it is because such a major thing has happened and you can feel angry that what is life-changing and of such major importance to your life is forgotten by other people. I feel the same way when people ask me or tell me I must be over my dad's death because it is more than a year. For me, it was so important that other people acknowledged what a significant event it was. When the didn't, I felt angry. Take care over Christmas.

Carolyn said...

I remember a particularly bad week in my family's life (we lost my mother and our paternal grandmother on the same day) when I truly wished we could go back to the old traditions of hanging crepe wreaths on the door to signify that there had been a death. When I went to my neighbours to pick up flowers that had been delivered there, she asked if I was getting married. I was very, very angry at that point as well.

Hang in there. You do have a right to your anger but try not to take it out on the unthinking (like your therapist). Know that we are thinking of you and sending you warm, comforting thoughts at this most difficult of times.

Have the best christmas possible and remember all the wonderful christmas' with your mum.

Herman said...

Oh, sweetie I feel like crap.Somehow I missed that your mother died. We should talk sometime. I'm so sorry

I'll be thinking about you today. I know it's going to be a very hard day.